Mardrömmar. Det är något jag förväntade vara enbart en del av barndomen men icke. Som vuxen har jag fått mardrömmar när jag har blivit riktigt trött eller när det har hänt mycket i mitt liv. Dessa drömmar har blivit en indikator för hur pass trött jag är egentligen. Så inatt var det dags igen. Det var riktigt obehagligt för att dessa mardrömmar känns även fysiskt. Jag är liksom vaken men ändå inte, jag är rädd och vill skrika men kroppen är som förlamad. Det kan kännas som att jag blir kastad upp i luften och svävar runt utan kontroll eller som inatt när jag kände som att någon typ tuggade på min hals. Jag känner inte smärta utan som en sensation att någonting finns där. När jag till slut lyckad att vakna så är jag helt svettig, hjärtat klappar som bara det och jag känner lättanad över att det var bara en dröm. Jag vet att det är min trötta hjärna som "skojar" med mina sinnen, men det är sjukt obehagligt. Någon mer som får väldigt "äkta" mardrömmar? Vad triggat dessa och vad brukar hjälpa?

I just breastfeed my twins at the same time. It takes less time that way, but it's quite stressfull as they are not that small anymore and both do their own thing while feeding.Ludwig rarely makes a fuzz while feeding, but he is a loud eater. He let's everyone around him know how much he is enjoying his milk. It's so cute how he moans and squeks but it is also a problem as he wakes up his sister. He wouldn't mind breastfeeding all the time. You should see how his eyes get big when he realised it's time to eat. He is a chubby little boy who loves his food! The only problem with him is that I think he has some mild reflux issues because he throws up easily and it takes ages for him to settle after I put him down after a feeding. He grunts, sneezes and sometimes the spit up comes all the way up to his nose. Poor baby. It has gotten better with time, but everyone would be sleeping better if he would be reflux free. Sofia is a fast eater. She can be done between 5-12 minutes and then sleep for 2-3 hours after eating. Sometimes I wonder if she gets enough but her nappies are full and she is obviously gaining weight as she wears clothes for a 4 month old instead of 2 month old. She is also the fuzzy one when she eats. If it doesn't happen fast enough she gets very upset and want's the bottle first and then the breast. I am getting around 6-7 h sleep per day now. It is enough to keep me going, but I can't do any big projects as I get tired very quickly. I didn't realise it before I had kids, but I am one of those people who really need their sleep to function on a basic level. That is why I could never start working nights either. Tonight is one of those nights I wonder how I get through the day as the twins keep fuzzing and both want to breastfeed all the time. A part of me wants to give up breastfeeding and induce them in to formula coma, but I am not quite ready for that as breastfeeding is good for them. The goal is to breastfeed them minimum of 6 months. Longer, if I find the energy or shorter if I find myself collapsing of exhaustion. In 12 days the twins will be 3 months old. It is crazy how the time goes so fast. Before I know it they will be walking and talking :).